Tried the keys you gave me yesterday
And they worked …
Now I face another and the key that worked then
Doesn’t work on this one
How many doors till I get to where I’ll see the flowing milk and honey
How many keys do I need to get to where you’ll show me?
I’ve been patient…I’m just not sure it’ll last so long
When every time I think I got a break, something else shows up
They say bad things come in threes
Now I wish it was so because seasons have changed
But they just keep coming I know I’m learning but does it have to be this hard?
When I think I have what you want me to…you take it away
What am I supposed to tell her? She needs stability…security…she needs to know I can stand for us
How do I tell them this is just a phase…
When they need their daddy to provide a life for them?
I do not question because I do not trust
I question because I need to hear You say you’re still here
That this is all You That though I walk through these valleys shadowed with death I should fear not…
For You are with me…You guide me…You comfort me
See, I can’t turn to anyone else
They won’t understand…not how You can
So I give you all these questions
Why do you let me go through all this pain…when will it be enough
When will I too sit at Your table and dine with You…
Instead being the one standing out looking in…
So many whens…so many whys…so many…
This clay does not question the potter…
It just needs to know that the potter is the one controlling the molding
Just needs to hear someone say its gonna be ok
You’re the only one I know that knows the end from the beginning
I need You to tell me I’ll be ok…we’ll be ok I need to hear it…
I need You to hold me Now more than ever.
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I believe that it’s ok to question God…to ask Him why…not accusingly, not angrily but just asking because you wanna know something and He’s the only one whose answer will suffice. Fill your heart with love and ask Him in humility…seek him…and He will speak. I’ve been through seasons where only his assurance sufficed and I had a lot of questions…a lot of doubts. I asked Him and He was sure to answer. If you haven’t been there yet, maybe someday you will. When you do, don’t be afraid to ask…don’t be afraid to question. It’s the only way He’ll reach out and hold you…then more than ever.