Way More

Ever thought why it took the Israelites

40 whole years of suffering, homelessness, death and disease

Just to get to the promised land?

Ever wondered why Job…blameless Job was inflicted from every aspect

Had his life crumble down before his very eyes?

Or why Sarah had to wait so long to her owns baby’s cry…

I have

I’ve been through times when I had more questions than I did answers

Times when I wondered how long it’ll take till the light at the end of the tunnel

Comes to full bloom and lights the dark away

I’ve had days when no matter how hard I tried; I couldn’t let His joy be my strength

When I doubted if He really is my shepherd

Because if He was, why were there so many wolves tearing at me?

Had one of those endless nights…that’s when I couldn’t hold it no more

I broke down before He whose hands seemed to be taking me through the very anguish and pain I thought they would pull me from

For though He inflicts me…yet I will still love Him

He told me this…and if like me you’re there, this is what He needs you to know

Its way more than a barren womb…

Way more than a fiery furnace

Way more than a broken heart

Its faith he sees…its trust he wants

And it takes pain to see them grow

He needs us to know that He is our shepherd

That He loves us

That He will set a table before us…only if we trust him in all things

Even when the winds are blowing off our little lights

Beloved, it’s not about the pain

He loves us…He never wants to hurt us

It’s about our destiny

Its about your life, your faith, your trust

And they need pain to grow

He didn’t wish it all away

He didn’t calm the raging storm

But I felt something break inside

I felt release

From fear…from doubt…from insecurities

I felt His love in the furnace and I felt my strength renewed

For I finally understood

Its way more than I can see

And I trust Him to get me through it all.

23.11.11

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